Today I sat down and read a bunch of huge, 2-inch thick bridal magazines. All of which were great entertainment, but they also reminded me of all the things that I haven't done right/haven't done at all/should be doing but am not.

I am also reminded that I am a 19 year old/lds/college-student type bride, not a 30-year-old successful business woman, so I guess my reception in a cultural hall might not be the classiest event of the season.

"...it is very important that every one in the bridal party, as well as all family members are wearing the right shades of the wedding colors. It is also important to be sure that the hairstyles and accessories are all complementary of one another."

Alright.

Lets be honest, these colors aren't going to be perfect.

I have no idea what to do with my long and stubbornly straight hair.

And I'm not 100% sure yet but I think my flower lady just bailed on me 2 weeks before my wedding.

BUT

I do have the most supportive and helpful family and future family ever. 

I have the most sacred and holy place on earth scheduled. 10:30 am.

And I have the sweetest, best future husband that anyone could ever hope for.

So when you look at it that way, the colors and flowers do not even compare to the importance of what is really going to happen that day. So to you-know-where with the magazines.

Also I bought some wedding shoes yesterday that are absolutely FAB. So we're good.

xo

Right now it is 12:01. My brain won't stop thinking, so it won't let me sleep.

For some reason all my thoughts, ideas, and realizations decide to come to me in the wee hours of the night. Thanks guys. 

So, I will take this time and catch up with all that has been going on this wonderful Christmas season. because it has really been so much fun. 

I somehow made it through all my finals and completely moved out of my apartment in just two days. It was the most hectic 48 hours ever, but before I knew it I was out of school and above the pretty clouds, heading home.

My sweet fiance got to come and spend Christmas with my family in this beautiful, sunny desert and we had a great time. He fits in so well with my dude-oriented family. Video games, football, inappropriate jokes, football, food and more football. 

All I can say is thank goodness I have my mom. Us girls gotta stick together around here.

I LOVE HIM. And miss him. And get butterflies in my stomach thinking about the fact that the next time I will see him, we will be getting married.
20 days.

My goodness, life is crazy. 

xo

S/o to BYU for putting up these pretty things all over. It makes me get little excited butterflies in my stomach b/c CHRISTMAS IS SO SOON (I am 10 years old). And it makes walking home from the library at midnight a little bit less painful. 

Finals are starting in t minus 2 days and I have already gotten ridiculously tried of  completely given up on studying. 

I mean, why would I study when I can just eat goldfish and watch Breaking Bad with Kody?

That show is really doing a number on my mental sanity. I have had scary dreams about about running from drug dealers the past few nights. Oh well. These 5 seasons aren't going to finish themselves.

I have had to restrain myself from thinking/planning/worrying about anything having to do with the wedding. At least for the next few days to "focus on school." 

Also I have to move out the day of my finals.

How has my brain not exploded?

If you see me walking around at school with a giant bun on top of my head and no makeup, please just give me a pat on the back and congratulate me for getting out of bed. Also give me a caffeinated beverage, diet dr.pepper would be nice.

xo

Yesterday me and these two adorable roommates drove up the canyon to Sundance, and they let me take their pictures.

I never had any idea how cute and Christmas-y this place was around Christmas time. There is snow and lights and wreaths and it is such a little winter wonderland. Even though it was absolutely freezing cold.


And oh m gee how cute are they????

Note to self: go on more Sunday drives. They are good for you.

xo

Minus the fact that I am away from my favorite person this Thanksgiving,  I'd say the past few days of being at home have treated me well.

You guys, it is 82 degrees outside right now. what.

I am never going back to that dark ice box we call Provo.

Kidding, I am in like 3 days. But till then I can be found outside wearing shorts and a t-shirt or inside playing Phase 10 and eating all of my parents food.

I never knew how much food was here till I lived on my own off of nothing but mac n cheese, pizza pockets and the occasional frozen corn dog. Still curious as to why my wedding dress didn't zip all the way up at my fitting the other day. I don't want to talk about it. 

xo